Seperti kebiasaan,menghilangkan kebosanan menanti pagi..setiap saat dimanfaatkan untuk menulis pos.Mungkin kali ini agak berlainan kerana walaupun nadinya sama tapi mediumnya berbeza.Walaupun payah untuk berbahasa melayu dengan baik,tapi aku cuba juga untuk menghabiskan pos kali ini dengan seratus peratus bahasa melayu.Biarlah aku dengan bahasaku ini.
Untuk mengejar kesempurnaan dalam segala macam perkara itu seolah-olah menggapai awan di atas sana.
Aku tidak akan menulis apa-apa dalam blog-ku melainkan ada benda yang membuatkan aku terpanggil untuk menulis.Mungkin sudah tertulis yang aku ini seorang yang rajin berkongsi.Aku suka berkongsi apa sahaja yang kurasakan perlu.Tapi.kalau kasih jawapannya tidak.
Aku suka pada apa sahaja yang terbentang di mata yang membawa kepada kebahagiaan,kesenangan dan kebaikan bersama.Aku mahu semua orang merasakan dirinya berharga dan dihargai apabila berada denganku.Kerana setiap orang punya hak untuk berasa begitu.Dan aku inginkannya untuk kekal begitu.Sampai bila?Sampai bila-bila.
Tapi tidak semua orang seperti aku.Ada.Tapi bukan semua.Ada.Tapi kebanyakkannya bermuka-muka.Aku tidak suka orang begini.Berlagak baik.Tetapi jauh di sudut hati siapa tahu.Aku masih tidak dapat menerima hakikat yang orang seperti ini wujud di dunia.Masih adakah ruang untuk orang seperti ini untuk dihargai?Sekadar menghargai di mulut sahaja dengan terpaksa.Lain di mulut lain di hati.Aku tidak berapa menyukai orang begini.
Untuk kalian yang gemar mengeksploitasi.Aku tidak suka kalian.Aku tidak mahu berada di dalam lingkungan orang begini.Alangkah kasihan melihat sahabat sendiri dieksploitasi.Demi untuk kepentingan diri sendiri.Kalian tidak layak untuk kami kasihani kerana tidak kenal akan belas kasihan.Kami terlalu bersabar untuk membiarkan anda insaf.Tetapi,seringkali kami memberi ruang untuk anda sedar,kalian gunakan ruang itu untuk terus mengeksploitasi.
Baka apakah kalian ini?
Untuk kawan-kawanku yang terlalu obses dengan setiap penghargaan.Sehinggakan tiada apa yang tertinggal untuk diber pengiktirafan.Tapi melalui jalan yang tidak disenangi oleh kami,Aku bukan tidak gemar kalian.Aku juga bukan tidak suka akan kalian.Cuma bukan itu caranya.Kalau inginkan sesuatu,kita berusaha.Tidak mampu berseorangan,untuk apa kami di sini?Bukankah kejayaan itu lebih manis kalau ia hasil dari titik peluh kita?Tidak perlu dicari semua penghargaan,ia akan datang sendiri kalau kita memang benar-benar layak.
Sekadar ingin meluahkan apa yang terjadi di mana-mana.Bukan ingin mengapikan(memfire)sesiapa.Kerana walau apapun tindakan,baik atau buruk.Kita hanyalah sekadar manusia.Punya had dan kelemahan.Tidak mengapa kalau kalian terjatuh kali ini.Jatuhlah..kalau itu akan memberi kalian pengajaran untuk lebih berhati-hati pada hari esok.
Tidak mengapalah kalau kalian masih belum sedar dari apa yang kalian lakukan.Mungkin itu lebih baik daripada kalian sedar tetapi masih lagi melakukan benda yang serupa.Lakukanlah semahunya.
Kerana kami juga punya sabar..Dan sabar itu ada batasnya.Kami punya hak untuk mempertahankan diri.Walaupun hak itu telah lama kalian pergunakan.Maaf kiranya di hujung penyesalan kalian terpaksa kami abaikan.Terlalu robek hati dan perasaan kami untuk kalian calarkan lagi.
Sekian.
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Pesananku:
I do not mean to point this post to any of you.Be you are known by me or you not.It just I am expressing disappointment plus disatisfactory towards people around us,around the globe.Its happening now.Its inevitable.Maybe your friends are too good for you that you cannot accept that he;s backstabbing you.And I am doing this for the sake of our precaution.Because you have your own right to be defensive when it comes to self-matters.If not you who defending yourself,then who?Next time,don't just be defensive to youself,be even!
Thank God that I am surrounded by very supportive friends and companion.I just could not ask for more.If you guys wondered why we are still manage to be together until this very moment, it is because we have faith in each other.
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It's been a while since my last post.I had so much to share with.It's just the time become so jealous that I couldn't post any.Never mind, that's not so important.What is really concerned right now what to be written on the next post.
It's already the 11th day of 2008.Happy New Year.Am still in the mood of new year celebration.To celebrate Christmas and New Year with family means so much to me.Regardless of the joyful moment I do have while celebrating the eve with friends.It is both joyful in their own way.
When new year came..like so,same old question came by.What is your vision for this year?And I still don't have any for the time being.I wish this year gives more ong to me.Ouch! isn't that also a vision?oh,I just made one..No,my point is I just not yet setting my mindset that new year means new hopes,new semester,new subjects,new..new..new...etc.Everything around are still the same.Inside my room here not a single thing that look like new for me.All I can say that this year starts with not-so good start.Night of the 31 December I celebrate the new year cheerfully and the next day I have to rush back to Campus.Oh...what a life.And back here in campus,I feel as if I am still at home.Physically I am here.But I am still thinking of the comfortableness of home.It's feel like heaven to be home."Rumahku Syurgaku" is the best phrase to describe it.
Oh I wish that Hiro Nakamura is here to bring me back home.How I am struggling to be home last year,that is exactly how I felt now...I am dying to be home..Oh..did overtype the word home?I am so anak ibu..
It just being home means you are showered with an abundant love.Things that you could not ask for more.Everything you need is right in front of you.Your mom,dad,siblings,neighbor,your childhood buddy.There are all around you..Plus,leaving the campus means you are leaving all the tangled-and-never-ending problems,hatred,hypocrites,fake smiles,sarcasm etc..
I keep myself busy to mingle with families,friends and everyone back home until not a single moment at home I ever thought of going back to campus.It just being home feels great.Because home is where the heart is.
Oh dear 2008..I am so not ready for all this.Another year older and yet getting older means you are getting wiser.There is so much decision to make which I don't like.Or to be exact,hate to make decision.Every time when you make decision,another party will have to swallow the bitter result.I don't want any people around me to feel negative.And to decide means you have to be rude to other party.How angelic I am..but that's how I want things around me to be.
Everyone has their right to feel happy and safe.
To end this post,let's just reflect on what we had done previously and aim to be the better us next time.How?You have all the answers........
It's already the 11th day of 2008.Happy New Year.Am still in the mood of new year celebration.To celebrate Christmas and New Year with family means so much to me.Regardless of the joyful moment I do have while celebrating the eve with friends.It is both joyful in their own way.
When new year came..like so,same old question came by.What is your vision for this year?And I still don't have any for the time being.I wish this year gives more ong to me.Ouch! isn't that also a vision?oh,I just made one..No,my point is I just not yet setting my mindset that new year means new hopes,new semester,new subjects,new..new..new...etc.Everything around are still the same.Inside my room here not a single thing that look like new for me.All I can say that this year starts with not-so good start.Night of the 31 December I celebrate the new year cheerfully and the next day I have to rush back to Campus.Oh...what a life.And back here in campus,I feel as if I am still at home.Physically I am here.But I am still thinking of the comfortableness of home.It's feel like heaven to be home."Rumahku Syurgaku" is the best phrase to describe it.
Oh I wish that Hiro Nakamura is here to bring me back home.How I am struggling to be home last year,that is exactly how I felt now...I am dying to be home..Oh..did overtype the word home?I am so anak ibu..
It just being home means you are showered with an abundant love.Things that you could not ask for more.Everything you need is right in front of you.Your mom,dad,siblings,neighbor,your childhood buddy.There are all around you..Plus,leaving the campus means you are leaving all the tangled-and-never-ending problems,hatred,hypocrites,fake smiles,sarcasm etc..
I keep myself busy to mingle with families,friends and everyone back home until not a single moment at home I ever thought of going back to campus.It just being home feels great.Because home is where the heart is.
Oh dear 2008..I am so not ready for all this.Another year older and yet getting older means you are getting wiser.There is so much decision to make which I don't like.Or to be exact,hate to make decision.Every time when you make decision,another party will have to swallow the bitter result.I don't want any people around me to feel negative.And to decide means you have to be rude to other party.How angelic I am..but that's how I want things around me to be.
Everyone has their right to feel happy and safe.
To end this post,let's just reflect on what we had done previously and aim to be the better us next time.How?You have all the answers........
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