I am so determined this morning to woke up as early as 6.45 am to get myself prepared for my last paper.It's Software Engineering paper.I read through notes,to be exact scrutinize them little by little and hoping for my brain cell put them inside my memory beautifully.While cycling towards the hall, I gave mom text message,hoping for her to give blessing to me.I reached the examination hall before 8.30 am.Once again open the notes for the very last time.I watched people around me.Chatting to each other with this so-cool face.I wonder if they are well prepared or if they are not.Some guys went directly to the toilet,placing their toyol maybe.8.55 am all of us entered the hall ready with wide range of bullets :)
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And the examination ends..
It's less than an hour after the exam now.After all struggles,self-conflict,this-right-and-that-wrong conflict.It had gone already. But far inside I still have this kind of regretting of letting the second question on the section B remain unanswered.My mistakes maybe of not comprehend the question CAREFULLY.I did MEMORIZE every single thing,inch by inch last night.And it ends up with nothing..sigh.I just throwing 10 marks to the drain.This tiny 10 marks can let you pass or no.What else could I do.
Okay,I have to stop that feeling before it becomes more contagious.No matter how many times I regret,things will not change.What has done is done.Let bygone be bygone.And dear friends,take my personal experience as your lesson.We are human being.Just a human.Our capabilities are too limited.You can't expect memorizing all eight topics in just one night.You can't blame the time for not giving you another hour to revise all the notes.You can't blame friends of letting yourself distracted from study/ies.Every time you point someone of any fault,four other fingers point at you back.This is what happens to all of us now.Yes,including me.For any error or failure,we seldom seek for self- weaknesses.You did wrong.you are too stupid,you this and you that.
Being ego of defending yourself is good.It's everyones trait.You have ego.So do I.But too much ego will let you to NOTHING.We(including myself) are so afraid of being called looser.Or the big L.Then if we are a looser,does it makes you disabled?Or does it will kills you?No.
Take a moment of your precious life.Reflect on yourself.Then you'll become a better person than yesterday.